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This is going to be a long post, so if you don’t want to read it you better just LEAVE now!

Okay, so you don’t want to hear me complain.  Sure I hate getting freakin’ older.  Who doesn’t?  So I hate the so-called “Curse” us women have to go through every freakin’ month.  I don’t like the mood swings.  God a man couldn’t put up with what we do each month, much less childbirth.  If a man had to give birth, they wouldn’t be in the mood for “SEX” all the time either. 

You think I like the fact that I can’t lose weight as easily as I used to.  I have to work hard at trying to stay fit.  I hate the word retirement, the next step is death.  The term “Golden Years” makes me want to puke!  “Life starts at 40″!  Who the hell came up with that saying?  Hell everything goes to pot after 40, you can’t read without bifocals or reading glasses, your kids leave home and your parents are aging.  WTF

I worked hard at raising three kids and people don’t understand why I get emotional when they leave each time to go back to college, or continue their lives, not to give Mom another thought, until they need something.  They even do things just to “Spite” Mom.  What’s the deal?  The other day I told my kids to be careful in the pool, what they were doing was dangerous.  My daughter looked at me and said “More the reason to do it, because you don’t want me to”.  WTF

I have been faithful to my husband, there for my kids, and I have been an obedient daughter.  I have done everything I could to please everyone in my life.  Just to hear words from them like “You complain too much”, “Just the more reason to do it, because you don’t want me to”, and “you need to get a job and quit feeling sorry for yourself”.  WTF

You don’t think raising kids, putting up with a husband in his ”I’m not sure if I’m ready to settle down” years, and putting up with an old stubborn Dad who is never wrong, isn’t a job.  Plus I have worked, most of my adult life, I worked at a bank for over 18 years, ran a business for 5 years, and still kept up with being a wife, mother and daughter.  I was also a costume maker at Halloween, I created stage Props at my daughters dance recitals, I have been to every football, basketball, and baseball game (even coached) that my kids have been involved in.  I was a cheerleader Mom, but not like the obsessed ones, I encouraged my daughter but didn’t push her.  I made cookies for the class parties and was class mom a year or two.  I had to go and stand up to a freakin’ teacher when she told my son he was stupid.  “You don’t mess with my kid, woman”.  I have been the bookkeeper, the cook, the laundry woman, I don’t like to clean, but I have to sometimes.  I have been a peacemaker, a counselor to a sister (going through a divorce).  I have spent hours at the hospital when my Mom was ill.   

This morning my husband told me “I complain to much”.  I think all I said was “I have a headache”.  For his information it is a MIGRAINE, which he has never experienced.  BTW migraines come with the freakin’ getting older syndrome. 

I have never been one of those wives who complain about my husband putting stuff off, like the floor tile for the kitchen, which he finally laid 2 1/2 years after the tile being bought.  I may have teased him.  I told him “it was Virgin Tile, it was never going to get laid”, but I never, not even once nagged at him about getting it done.  Hell I would have done it myself, but he would have found a reason to tell me I did it wrong.  So I put up with the nasty kitchen carpet until he finally got it done.  Believe you me; he is hell to be around when he is working on something like that.  He bitches and moans more than me.  WTF !

I am sorry to be so off the wall crazy with this blog post, but sometimes you can just take so much and you gotta “Speak Your Mind”.  Sometimes you even have to escape it all.  You wanna know a secret?  I keep a pair of shoes in my car.  I call them my “Run Away Shoes”.  When I am around the house I am usually barefoot, that is just how I am comfortable.  I want the security of knowing that if someone in my family pisses me off, instead of staying there and battling it out (they say I don’t know when to shut up) ((whatever !!)) I can leave for a while and cool off.  The shoes are in case I run out of gas or have a flat tire or something.  I consider them my emergency kit.

You know everyone I know complains about something.  My Dad complains about President Bush, do you hear me telling him he complains too much.  My Husband complains about his back hurting.  What do I do?  I usually rub it for him.  My Daughter complains about not having enough cloths or the perfect thing to wear.  OMG you should see her closet, so full of cloths.  My Son may complain because his cell phone doesn’t work sometimes, he thinks he needs to change carriers, shit all carriers have their problems, you can’t pick up service everywhere all the time. 

So if casually mentioning in conversation to my Husband that I had a headache, gets on his nerves.  Maybe I should put more than “Run Away Shoes” in my car.  Maybe I should have a whole “Run Away Bag” packed.  

 Sorry I am usually the nicest sweetest person you wanna meet, I really try my hardest to keep peace, but tell me I am complaining too much, you better run for them there hills buddy!!!

Okay enough with my ranting.  I will try to go back to that Wife, Mother, and Daughter everyone expects me to be.  Now where did I put my bottle of Xanax?

I swear, I can be on the computer, checking email, checking facebook, writing a blog, checking Twitter, reading blogs, trying to learn, when all at once the day is gone.  I swear I got up early, got on the computer and Zoom it was lunch time. 

The thought went through my mind….this must be how a dog feels, for every year of a dog’s life, it is like seven years of a human’s life.  Maybe we should ask “Do you mean real time or computer time?” 

Just a thought as my day went by way too fast.  Another thought time spent in a waiting room is double real time, and time spent on the computer is half of real time. 

I was at Affiliate Summit and visiting with Mark Weiglus from 45n5.com, he was in charge of the blog room.  As we visited the question came up, “What is your Niche”?  “What are you interested in”?  I was almost embarrased.  “I have no idea.” I thought to myself. 

Everyone in the Affiliate marketing community talk about finding your “Niche”.  Oh my God, I have no clue who I am.  I have been a wife and a mother for so many years and I have no idea what I am all about.  Sure I am all about my kids, and I love my husband, but my kids are grown, my husband has gotten a promotion and is all excited about his work and that is his life now. 

My Parents live close, and thank Goodness, I am close as they are getting older and time is something you can never get back.  I treasure each precious moment with my Parents.

There are so many women who have blogs about their kids, being a mom, strong women.  Yeah, yeah, yeah,….whatever!   I am nothing special.  Who am I?  I am like every other woman in the world who has dedicated their lives to their family.  Which is so admirable, don’t get me wrong, I am proud of myself, and I love my family more than life itself. 

But Who Am “I” ? 

What can I say?  I LOVE MUSIC ! 

 I usually listen to music all day long.  I grew up in the 70’s 80’s 90’s and Now.  I still haven’t grown up.  I am not stuck in an era. 

I love the “Classic Rock” of the 70’s .  I love the “Big Hair Bands”.0f the 80’s  I really don’t know what you would say the 90’s were about, (maybe the underground bands and the punk rock bands).  I have never quit loving music.   I don’t like “Rap”, that is the only thing I honestly can say, I have never and never will acquire a taste for “Rap”.

I understand Rap has its place in the world of hip hop and dance.  I can’t dance.  Well at least not like that.  I love the “Rock” of today.  I love “Southern Rock” which is very much like todays “Red Dirt” or “Texas Country” music.

There is one awesome kid I wish the world could hear.  He is from Wichita Falls, Texas.  His name is Johnny Cooper.  He is a young, Texas Country/Red Dirt, musician. 

Johnny Cooper Promo Video

I watch Fuse TV everyday.  I love it !!  Steven’s Untitled Rock Show, The Sauce, Jools Holland Show, and the Henry Rollins show, are all awesome.  Very little Rap, R&B, and  Hip Hop on this channel, but there is some.   During the summer they sponsor the “Warped Tour“.  Awesome channel.

Not too crazy about MTV, to many reality shows like The Real World, Made, The Hills, etc.  Seems like the Music isn’t part of MTV anymore. 

VH1 is okay, but it is also getting several reality shows, like Bret Michaels “Rock of Love“, The Hills, etc.

Well all in all music makes the world go around.  It is a big part of my world.

I know, I know, the same old, same old, cliches.  Everyone tries to improve their lives by trying to do better, eat less, lose weight, quit smoking, etc….

I am  making my resolutions on a different note.  Mine are selfish resolutions.

1.  Spend more time on myself, and quit trying to please everyone else.

2.  Learn how to be greedy and make as much money as possible. 

3.  Dance, even if I embarrass my family.

4. Indulge myself in luxurious activities.  (like a trip to Las Vegas)

5.  Never be embarrassed, If I fall, get up and shrug it off.  We all Fall.

6.  Ignore the word “Bitch”.

7.  Don’t turn around when I hear someone yell ”Mom”.   

8.  Say “NO” more often.  If you say “YES” all the time, you will be taken advantage of, usually with no pay or gratitude.

9.  Don’t stop what is important to me, to help someone with what is important to them.

10.  Last but not least, learn how to make a little ”BUZZ”.  Get noticed, and get heard.  No one can stiffle my words…I have the freedom to “Speak My Mind” !

I really get sick of stupid politicians.

Texas Representative, Warren Chisum, wants to make it harder to get a divorce. You can read the proposed bill at http://www.legis.state.tx.us/tlodocs/80R/billtext/pdf/HB02684I.pdf

I feel that this would just make the desperate more desperate; there would be more murders, abuse, and missing people. If I was with someone I couldn’t live with, and there was no way out, I am afraid I would have to take desperate measures.

I think it all comes down to the “Right Wing” Republicans platform of “Family Values”. Talk about hiding behind something, “Family Values?” How many of these politicians have affairs, sexually abuse the young pages, are actually gay, yet don’t stand up for gay rights.

President Bush vetoed stem cell research, saying “I don’t believe in sacrificing a life, to save a life”. What about this Iraq war?  

The current administration cut funding to Planned Parenthood. Planned Parenthood provides so much good info, STD testing, and birth control to the people who can’t afford these services otherwise.  They also provide these services to young kids, who probably are afraid to talk to their parents about these subjects.

Ignoring these things won’t make them go away. We will just have more uneducated people, with more kids, who more than likely will follow in their parents footsteps and we will have more poverty, welfare, and domestic violence.

When the desperate get more desperate they take desperate measures. I can’t imagine a young girl thinking she might be pregnant; probably being scared to tell a parent, not having a place to go that could help her in confidence.

What about the churches; that protest in front of these clinics; which make threats; and actual bomb these places. I thought religion was supposed to teach love, forgiveness, understanding, etc., not violence.